Wednesday, April 28, 2010

My plate is full....

I feel that I am living in a whirlwind these days.   Last week, I flew out to Washington DC on Tuesday for a National Hospice & Palliative Care Conference; flew back in on Friday evening.  Quickly packed and left on Friday evening for the beach weekend with my Mother and Sisters (Monday's blog) and returned home Monday afternoon , emotionally drained.  Began work yesterday with a meeting marathon followed by lunch. But my week is only starting. We are keeping our precious granddaughters this coming Friday through Sunday afternoon while my son and daughter-in-law go to Tennessee to sign the lease and look at the place they are moving to the following week.  I then leave Sunday afternoon for the NC State conference for Home & Hospice Care.   I will return on Tuesday afternoon and have a LONG day at the golf course on Wednesday for our Annual Golf Tournament which is one of our biggest fundraisers for our Foundation...and I know nothing of the game of golf...but my presence is required. Then bright and early Thursday, we leave, caravan style, to make the 7 hour trek up the mountains to Knoxville, TN where my son and his family are moving.  We will stay and help them settle in and then on Sunday my husband and I will return, lonely and broken hearted, to our home...7 hours away from them.



I am trying to squeeze in all the time I can find to spend with my precious granddaughters.  They are the most wonderful gift from God.  If you're not a grandma, then you really don't get it, if you are a grandmother, you absolutely know what I am talking about.  They are just at such a sweet age to.  Ally will be 4 in August, and Annie Grace will be 2 in August.  We have such fun.  Tea Party's are the best.  Don't let me get sidetracked.  I could go on and on....typical Grandma!  But, back to my story.  I stopped by the store to pick up some things for dinner on my way home from work yesterday and when I got home and was greeted at the door by the Little Diva's that had come to see ZuZu and Poppy and have dinner. It was then that I realized that I had left some of the groceries at the store!!! How frustrating.



Again, back to the whirlwind!....My schedule is extremely tight right now. I look around my room as I type before heading to the office.  I have 2 suitcases on the floor...begging to be unpacked.  One from my Washington trip and the other from the beach trip...I don't have time yet.  I simply run and pull out what I need at the moment!  I'd rather spend my hours with them...the suitcase can wait until Sunday when I leave again!...or maybe it will be 3 suitcases ont he floor waiting to be unpacked!!! 


When I think of them moving, I do see the positive...but the negative...I feel.  Of all the times of the year for their move, why now?  We have no doubt that this move is of God's greater plan.  But why now, why not next month when things are slower for me.  Doesn't God know my schedule of events?  I couldn't even be at our church Sunday for the commissioning service for their farewell due to previous plans.  Why now??  I want to stomp my foot and say, can't you see I'm swamped already!!!  Lord, what are you doing to me!?!?!?  Silence......Oh, but that's right, this isn't about ME!!!  How I forget.  I'm not usually a selfish person, in fact, I consider myself a selfless person... ...hmmm, or do I? 




If you're a believer, you have to know that God Almighty has a plan.  Very seldom does it immediately make perfect sense or come at OUR right time.  But that is the beauty of living a life for Christ...His plans are perfect, mine are busy...His are for the ultimate good, mine, well, evidently they are for me.   I get caught up in the whirlwind and my focus goes astray and is cluttered with the debris of ME. How sad. So glad GOD is in control and not me.



What an awesome reminder.  It's not about me.  



"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)                                                    

6 comments:

carolina nana said...

Hello Sue Ellen,
Wow your days sound like mine sometimes, bouncing from one thing to another. I feel so bad for you because your grands are moving away,I can't imagine my life without little g-son.But you are right when you say God has a plan,and sometimes it's hard to agree with it but it will turn out to be perfect as His plans always do. Just hang in there and have a blessed tomorrow. Marilyn

Sue Ellen said...

Thanks so much for "feeling my pain" Marilyn! It will definately be a challenge...without a doubt. A friend remined me it could have been out of the country...that certainly made the 7 hour trip seem short...Sue

LOVE, MERCY AND GRACE...GOD'S GRACE said...

Sue, you have always lived in a whirlwind!!! Going non-stop!!!:o) and I have envied you, too!! Especially since I am getting older!!!

You will miss your children and grandchildren....so you must prepare yourself for either road trips or plane flights to Knoxville!!

Love ya, sis!

~Beth

Beth in NC said...

Thanks for the follow! I am returning the favor!

Life sure does get busy, doesn't it?

God bless you!
Beth

Unknown said...

Wow! Thanks for such an honest post! You are quite busy! I can't even imagine your frustration with all these events piling up.

You sound like you ADORE your grand babies! I will say a special prayer for you as you cope with them moving.

Power Up Love said...

Things we don't understand always leave us questioning the reasons why, but your statement is very true. "His plans are perfect." and Jeremiah 29:11 is proof of that.